Riding the Shift

Hello My Lovelys

I am currently in a spiritual shift.

I can feel it.

I have been here many times before but that never makes the journey to the otherside of it any easier. It is tough but I know it is worth it.

Many of you reading this blog may have had a spiritual shift and many of you may never have heard of it before. For those to whom this is new to a spiritual shift is where your spiritual energy changes. It means your vibration and connection to source (energy, Universe, God) increases and opens up more. Many things may become clear, some challenges may occur, emotons raise to the surface to work through. For everyone its a different experience.

For me what I experience is so hard to explain as it is a complex mix of emotions, clarity, frustration, inner calm, peaceful/still mind and much more. Saying that I feel compelled to share with you my inner thoughts and feelings of this shift. So please grab yourself a drink sit back and get ready to dive deep into my mind and soul.

For me a shift starts with things starting to feel like to much, this literally includes everything, things I love, work, family and thats when the frustration kicks in and I want to stop the world and get off. I get increasing frustrated with everything, I feel I am getting no where and get this massive urge to hide away and just quit. Bear in mind up to this point everything has been fine. I have been fine, happy and proud of what I am achieving. The thoughts of "whats the point", "You might as well quit" and "your not good enough" (I put it in speech marks as it is a inner voice that chirps up)start to enter my head. At this point I start to feel down in the dumps and want to eat everything in sight.

Now I bet your thinking the exact same thing I used to which is that this is the start of deprsssion, in a funk/rut or anxiety is taking over; and yes it does kind of feel like that at first and now that I reckonise it for what it is I no longer worry but thats because I know whats coming.

The inner voices are testing my commitment, so many times I have retreated into a corner at this point and hidden away confused and hurt, but no more. Its saying to me "how much do you want this in your life?" (whatever it is that its urging me to walk away from) "Do you realy believe in yourself?"

Oh and did I tell you that this the first step of the shift for me!

Once in the flow of the funk and munching session the tiredness kicks in and I feel absolutely exhausted but within this my mind starts to clear. All of my regular thoughts of what I need to be doing and the swirl of ideas, my focus on everyday things and any other crazyiness thats possibly floating around in there clears. Its such a strange experience, the fact that I feel down and tired yet have a clear mind and have clarity. It doesn't quiet seem possible does it?

At this point I start to really feel my heart chakra, I feel it opening up, its vibration within my chest. I can feel the love of my family so much stronger, the love for myself and those around me. Inner calm and inner peace start to fill me and at this point I am ready to recieve whatever it is I need to work through or realise. I am ready for spirit to show me the way or lesson.

This shift, like so many, has got me digging deep. The vision just came to me, I didn't even have my eye closed but in my mind I saw, clear as day, me. Little me, there I was standing in my childhood lounge with my little blond pig tails, dressed in my coat and welly boots just looking at me so sad I could feel it, my heart ached.

That was a couple of days ago now and I keep seeing her and feeling her. She is with me as I write this trying to help me express the feeling to the best of our ability. The tears are welling in my eyes as I type. I know what I have to do, I have to do it for her, we both need it. She needs healing, she experienced so much and has hung onto it and now it is holding me back in adulthood. I need to healing my inner child, I need to go back, connect with her and tell her its okay to let it all go and its time to move on from all of the hurt and confusion. I just wish it was as easy as that.

This is one of the deepest I have ever had but I know that this is the most important one I have ever had. It is something I am going to have to work on a lot using meditation, self healing and of course the help of others.

I really hope that I have done the process of a shift justice in my explaination of what I go through. I know many that have extreme physical symptoms like headaches, body pain as well as what I have spoken about I this blog but for me pain only comes sometimes.

As I move forward with my healing of my inner child, I know I will become stronger and more complete.

Sending you lots of Love, Light and Healing on your Journey

Danica x